nothing

i lie here
asleep yet awake
restless
unaware worthless
so lost so lonely
out with friends
seeking the true ones
failing ineviatbaly again n again
without foe or friend
i lie here
underneath this blue sky
seek redemption!?
i dunno what it means
i seek the meaning
on this ground,altar
of lies n deception
i seek the truth
know its out there
hidden waiting for discovery
meaning
i never found out
lied to n cheated upon
silent
resolved silence
words could hurt much more
thier futility at the fore
forsaken by love
unforgiven by love
forotten by love
fearful of love
what is it that u seek?
what is it that i seek?
do we ever reach utopia?
do we ever cross this abyss?
do we?do we ever?