Tuesday, October 31, 2006

little suns adorn the wet moss
creepin up the stiff cliffs
shroudig the rocky mass
along with the little violets
hanging on to the earth
delicate and wily.

Monday, October 30, 2006

hours and seconds
pass by alike..
years and days
seem equally long..

i know i know
not yet not yet
its still so incomplete
grant some time.

where are you....?

i seek your words
in every letter received.

i find your face
in every passing stranger.

i feel your touch
in every caress of the breeze.

i search for some signs
in every clashing glance.

i hear your voice
in every whisper of the wind.

i sense your scent
in every fragrance my way.

i listen to your heart
in every beat within me.

there is more time
than life they say.

but for now, my life
is just hanging on time.

Last Conversation

would i be missed
if i just go away one day?
would you miss me?
yes you would be missed
like the effervescent moon.

would tears be shed
in my grief?
would you cry?
yes i would, tears would flow
like the river torrential.

would the heavens cry
for my loss?
would they?
yes they would,angels would sing
like the mouring dove.

would the sun drown
upon my death?
would you drown?
yes i would drown in the pain,
like a hapless bird fallen.

would it be night
as darkness engulfs me?
would you be lost?
yes i'd lose myself in the dark,
like a candle smothered.

would the stars dim
with my sublime soul?
would you fade away?
yes i'd lose my substance,
like a frail fragrance.

would the birdsong cease
as i lose my voice?
would you stop singing?
yes i'd stop singing
like the joyful lark.

would the winds blow
in fury at my mistakes?
would you be angry?
yes i'd be furious at the titans of death,
like a wrathful Zeus..

would the earth shiver
as i do with fear?
would you be scared too?
yes i'd be so scared to lose you,
like the sun would fear losing its light.

would you but live for me
as i lived for you and i loved you?
say you would.promise you would.
yes i would live for you.
Like you would have,because i love you.


Sunday, October 29, 2006

Why would you...?

why would you
walk away from me,
when i'm still waiting?

why would you
decieve me so,
when i've been so faithful?

why would you
never look into my eyes,
when they are filled with tears?

why would you
suddenly let go of my hands,
when they are so tightly clasped?

why would you
hurt me so,
when i'm already wounded?

why would you
never listen to my cries,
when my heart is screaming?

why would you
create this gaping void,
when i'm so close to you?

why would you
turn yourself away,
when my body seeks your embrace?

why would you
betray my trust,
when i trust you with my life?

why would you
not let me in your secret,
when i've bared my soul for you?

why would you
hide away your grief,
when i'm feeling your pain?

why would you
never disclose your fears,
when i'm pretending to be brave for you?

why would you
mask your weakness,
when i've shown you my weak heart?

why would you
slip away unbeknownst,
when i'm surrounded by strangers?

why would you
leave me alone,
when i crave your presence?

why would you
go away like that,
when you've never heard
how much i've always loved you?
how much i'll always love you?

why would you
go away like that,
when you've never told me
how much you love me?
how much you've always loved me?

why would you
go away like that,
when we never came to know,
how we lost our love?
how we lost our love?


Saturday, October 28, 2006

Six Feet Under

Darkness falls around me
like the snowflakes
as they gather up,
a blanket to cover
the blinding light.

Crimson waves arrive
chasing away the
dying sun rays,
now ushering the
creeping stars.

I wonder if they will
shed their light upon
my solitary figure
enlighten me?
show me the path?

Its pitch-black around me
but for the pale moon,
for now its light,
a reluctant guide.

I see ghosts of my past
they havnt yet drowned
in the depths of dark
in which i’m floating,
in which i'm lying.

Ahead there is light
that burns my vision.
here is its absence,
enveloping me,
embracing me.

What do i do
to repel this light
i've now come to hate?
What do i do to
escape its overwhelming brilliance?

Let me hide away
in this omnipresent
shadow,larger than
my own shallow
imitation of life.

i'm tired,need my peace
even this obscurity,
being a non entity,
faceless and nameless,
satiates this want.

darkness falls around me
as i lay buried six feet under
numbed,devoid of pain.
life and light depart
Finally,i rest in peace.


Friday, October 27, 2006

take me away take me away
from this loveless life i lead
love maybe a lie as i always say
but you'd still believe and strive
for the love we know will be
never ours.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

enigma?not really..

i am no one.
i am nothing.
i am nowhere.
monosemy in all.
comes down to null.
void.would you believe?
from cloud nine to
Lucifer's den.
A bumpy ride?
no, a rocking transition.
clueless at times.
can i make it?
what am i?
a spirit within flame.
a flame within fire.
a fire within me.
mere mortals
leaving the world behind
without any imprints
on time and memory
of a single soul.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Killing Me Softly..

"Killing Me Softly"
Strumming dub plates with our fingers,
Eliminate sounds with our song,
Killing a sound boy with this sound,
Killing a sound boy with this sound,
Taking sound boys' lives with this dub,
killing him softly with this sound.
Strumming my pain with his fingers,
singing my life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song,
killing me softly with his song,
Telling my whole life with his words,
killing me softly with his song.
I heard he sang a good song,
I heard he had a style,
And so I came to see him and listen for a while.
And there he was this young bwoy,
stranger to my eyes,
Strumming my pain with his fingers,
Singing my life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song,
killing me softly with his song,
telling my whole life with
his words, killing me softly with his song.
I felt all flushed with fever,
embarrassed by the crowd,
I felt he found my letters and read each one out loud.
I prayed that he would finish,
but he just kept right on
strumming my pain with his fingers,
singing my life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song,
killing me softly with his song,
telling my whole life with his words,
killing me softly with his song
Yo L-Boogie, take it to the bridge
Strumming my pain with his fingers,
singing my life with his words,
killing me softly with his song,
killing me softly with his song,
telling my whole life with his words,
killing me softly with his song.
Strumming my pain with his finger,
yeah he was . . .
shoutouts and fade.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

wait for you...

i wait for you
as the parched up land
waits for monsoons
to heal its cracked wounds.

i wait for you
as the frozen bud
seeks spring season
to bloom and spread its fragrance.

i wait for you
as the thirsty river
aniticipates its meeting
with the sweet saline sea.

i wait for you
as the luminiscent moon
sits upon dawning sun
to fade into darkening oblivion.

i wait for you
as the west winds
head for high mountains
to caress their peaks.

i wait for you
as the midnight
seeks the rising sun
to clear its dread and quiet.

i wait for you
as the lover waits
for a life time
i wait for you...



i lie here
asleep yet awake
unaware worthless
so lost so lonely
out with friends
seeking the true ones
failing ineviatbaly again n again
without foe or friend
i lie here
underneath this blue sky
seek redemption!?
i dunno what it means
i seek the meaning
on this ground,altar
of lies n deception
i seek the truth
know its out there
hidden waiting for discovery
i never found out
lied to n cheated upon
resolved silence
words could hurt much more
thier futility at the fore
forsaken by love
unforgiven by love
forotten by love
fearful of love
what is it that u seek?
what is it that i seek?
do we ever reach utopia?
do we ever cross this abyss?
do we?do we ever?

Sunday, October 08, 2006


love maybe a lie
but you'd still believe
cant you see its a sham
so many hearts break,
so many forgotten promises
and so many true lies..
i could be on of them
a victim of this lie:love
but no,im helpless,even worse
cause im incapable of love..